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Once Upon A Time

Saturday, November 16, 2019



once upon a time there was a girl who fantasized about her wonderful life with prince charming and how good she was to him because he loved her so.

as she grew older and met her prince charming they created a life together filled with love and animals, warmth and safety, but she started to feel lost and unable to attain what her life really was meant to be and left prince charming and her comfortable life for the thrill of new love, hope and adventure to find and be true to herself.

in the end she continued to search for herself wrapped up in the heart angst of being in love with a monster and wanting to have a loving and adventurous family life with her monster and their two dogs but life with a monster has rocky edges and she found herself even further lost than she had ever been, spiraling through life in animalistic fight or flight, reacting quickly and exhausting her mind and body with waves of sadness and confusion until the drowning could go on no longer and with child-like fragility lifted her head up to breathe life into her listless body, looking upon herself, she saw the worn, tired look in her eyes she knew, as miss good vibes always knows, that it was the turning point, the fork in the road, the light at the end of one tunnel, she had to make a choice wether to be true to herself and let her life blossom and be as fiery and fierce and beautiful as she always dreamed it could be or to allow her undying love for a monster eat her alive until there was nothing left of her to remember and so she smiled at the monster, told the monster how very much she loves him, her heart-fluttering butterflies at the mere closeness of his skin, his sculpted stomach and sparkling golden glint in his almond shaped eyes, the heat of their energy and stinging surges of electricity in golden hued waves, the seduction of sound that he created for her ears, all of this and the expansion of her mind that he with his assistance that door had been opened, among all of these flashes of feelings, she raised her chin towards the light and she stopped drowning.



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Stepping Stones





most important turning points of my life thus far
(limited to 20 or less)


i was born.

my family moved to San Antonio in 1984.  i was four.

i joined show choir my 8th grade year and it helped with my confidence.

i moved out of my childhood home in the fall of 1998 into a dorm with a roomie i had never met, Shanna.

i got my first job working at a movie theater 1999, continued to build confidence in myself.

Shanna introduced me to my ex-husband and we were married in June 2003.

adopting our first animals, Miss Kitty(2003) and Noah(2005 after Hurricane Katrina).

moved to Austin, TX winter 2007 into the new year 2008 which led to me beginning to think of living a healthier, more minimal lifestyle.

ACL surgery, recovery and refocus on a healthy life in 2010-2011.

adopted Cole.

Noah passed away Feb 2016

i divorced my husband and decided to live a life that had more meaning and less focus on stuff August 2016

adopted Hanz August 2016.

i moved to Seaside, Oregon with just my boyfriend and my dog in the winter of 2017.

adopted Dahlia May 2017.

i worked at Pilot House Distillery for Sunday Farmer's Markets and at Five Zero Trees Dispensary as a budtender.  Both of these jobs pushed my social and comfort limits and loved these jobs.

we moved to Pojoaque, NM in late October/ early November 2017

i worked at a beautiful horse ranch/ retreat for a few months with some of the best people I've ever met.  I also worked at a gourmet chocolate shop, Kakawa for almost a year as FOH barista/ sales and shipping.  Crazy job but i really did love the people i worked with.

we moved again to Port Angeles, WA February 2019.







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